I never had any sex education in my life, and the Chinese government is always trying to censor all the porn websites, which are our only source of sex education. And I grew up with my grandparents, so I didn’t have any access to any sort of porn coz they don’t watch that. Other kids may find their parents’ porns  hiding underneath the bed. I have always been a traditional “good boy”; I never watched any porn until I pass 18. In high school, I was the only guy that has never watched porn before graduation. Pathetic, right?

Because of my lack of sex education, I didn’t know that we all come from vagina until I was 14. I didn’t know women have vagina down there; I thought they pee through their assholes, sorry girls. I’ve seen my aunt get pregnant, her belly is just getting bigger and bigger each day, and one day my cousin was born when I was 7. So I knew the baby came out of his mother’s body. And I was wondering where the “exit” is?

Back then I was thinking, if I can get pregnant, where the baby can come out? It is not very likely to be the asshole coz if so then my butt is going to suffer a major constipation or just simply explode with a mixture of shit and blood and baby. Then, it got to be the bellybutton. So I held the belief that babies come from bellybutton until 14, when one of my friends told me about the real “exit”.

It was in my 9th grade middle school last year; we all lived in that low-budget dorm. I couldn’t remember how the conversation went, but he told me “girl has a hole down there, and you have to put your dick into the hole while making love.” I was shocked, “what? What are you talking about? What do I do that for?”

You know, I have seen a lot of sex scene during the early 90s while I was still in elementary schools. Tons of western movies were just flushed into the Chinese TV channels at that time. And if you see a man and a woman in any western movie, regardless of their age difference, they are going to have sex sooner or later. I’ve watched a lot of hot sex scene as a toddler, which stimulated me go into puberty way too early.

But sex scene in movies is nothing compares to porn, I thought having sex was just kissing, caressing, and maybe some rubbing. I didn’t know it was all about fucking. After knowing that, I felt it was so disgusting and dirty for a really long time.

However, I still didn’t know what pussy looks like until I was 18 in college, all the boys gathered together watching porn in the dorm. Sadly it was straight porn; I lost my porn virginity to some Japanese straight porn. I already knew I was gay back then and didn’t really care about pussy, but when I saw how the straight guys having sex and most importantly, the pussy, oh gosh, I was like, “THANK GOD I AM GAY”. As an atheist, it was my first time I felt that I was truly blessed by my good Lord.

By the way, the Japanese porn is really kinky. The guys are always short and fat and ugly with a one inch long dick, and the girls are pretty but are always screaming their head off. It made me feel that she is not doing something pleasant but painful. Anyway, I can’t really watch the ugly guys in those straight porns, and do you know that a lot of times the guys covered their faces with a black veil, which made them look exactly like terrorists. If Americans watch this and don’t know it is porn beforehand, it’s gonna be like “oh my god the Taliban’s new tape is fucking Japanese girl?”

OK, the girl, my potential fag hag I wanna talk about, she was my high school deskmate for one and half years. Chinese high school is still like elementary school, you stay in the same classroom with the same people for three years. We were so kinky that we would give each other sex education. She explained to me what cycle was and I explained to her what cum was. We were so weird but we were so close and we talked about everything. We talked about guys, we gossiped about everybody. After watching Will & Grace, the first and only girl in my mind who can be my grace was she.

She passed away due to cancer not long after I came to the states.

I really miss her and this post is dedicated to her.

Today the cutie of the day is French actor, Édouard Baer. I found Jewish guy pretty hot.