In this world, there are always some people who constant want something to bitch about. Recently I found one of the most ridiculous bitching on magazine Psychology Today, the complaint was from reader’s feedback. One of the earlier issues of Psychology Today used two models posing nude on the cover (definitely not in a erotic way). Some people apprently found it very offensive, “magazine coveres are always featured with thin, young, beautiful people and I found it very offensive bla bla bla…” So we should use fat, old, ugly people as models to shoot magazine cover? Who is gonna buy it?

Although you know who is the queen of bitching? I think the Catholic League leader Bill Donahue should be crowned. He gained so much fame from media by attacking anything, anyone, who don’t give a shit to his religion. He always shows up on TV like he is some kind of moral God (he thinks he is) with an angry face, and starts bitching. And can you believe that he even has a Ph.D.? In these days, everybody has a Ph.D.

People/Things he attacked before: Bill Maher (I love this godless liberal guy). Joan Osborne for her Grammy-nominated song “One of Us”. The movie Dogma. Marilyn Manson (I so want Marilyn Manson fight with Bill Donahue). Bush Holiday Cards, which says “Happy Holiday” instead “Merry Christmas”.CSI. South Park, on which he has been a character. John Edwards. And of course my Goddess Kathy Griffin.

And many more, you can check wikipedia for bitching details.

Marilyn Manson’s respond: “I can’t possibly be at war with Christ, because your religion killed him and what he stood for. But if you want to be at war with me, bring it on.”

Bring it on Bill. And I love Manson’s respond.

And by the way, I am super pissed that Danny Noriega got eliminated. FUCK FOX! You homophobic right wing republican brainwasher!

Today I want to write about perfectionism and I don’t mean to be funny. Psychology study found that perfectionist was not born but made, particularly during early childhood. The process is almost irreversible.

Unfortunately, I am one of the perfectionists. You know parents of my generation, especially Asian parents, are so hypocritical, they are ok with themselves getting B and C in college but we have to study our asses off to get A. A=Acceptable, B=Bad, C=Crap, if you got an F, you are finished. Unrealistic high expectation on kids is very harmful!

Why should I always have to be the top student to gain approval from family? I am fucking tired of it. I hate my family making me a perfectionist. I worry way too much; I constantly defend myself; I non-stop thinking about how other people look at me. I find it very difficult to receive criticism and easily get depressed when things don’t go the way I want. I want everything to be in order, and I am a workaholic.

I am addicted to approval from others; success is the only drive for me to keep on living. I am scared of rejection, being hurt, I developed strong self-defense and I can never let my guard off. It seems the only way to make me feel free to run away from my family. I hate them. I don’t even want to socialize with people, I can’t trust anyone, and sometimes I just hate the world I am living in.

People may see me the smart Asian guy in college, who got unbelievable high score on test. It doesn’t really matter if they think I am smart or cool or whatever, I found myself a pathetic loser. I know my problem, and I am trying to change, and it’s so hard. Trying so hard to satisfy someone who will never satisfy, who sadly is my mother and it is the most fucking stupid job in the world.

YOU KNOW WHAT?! I QUIT!!

I was pissed when I saw this youtube video. A Good Morning America Journalist asking our Goddess Madonna, “what moral right do you have after doing SEX to write a children’s book?” Madonna clearly was unprepared for such a rude question, what she should say was “I am the Queen and I can write whatever I want to!” If I was her, I probably will slap that bitch whoever asked the stupid question.

Children, or all the human beings, are the bi-products of sexual orgasm. Without sex, there will be no children. All children will eventually have sex when they grow up. You don’t have to be a virgin to be a children’s book writer.

This question is so ridiculous, and I am so sick of those hypocritical moralists since day one. Those hypocritical moralists exist in every corner of the world. Throughout my growing up, I was constantly receiving the message that SEX is dirty, evil, the less you know about it, the more moral you are. And this is BULLSHIT!

Children should be taught about SEX and it is not a dirty, evil thing, it’s one of the most natural things and everybody do it for pleasure. And it’s so hypocritical for those adults who are having sex like crazy to tell the children “sex is evil, sex is dirty, you should not know anything about it.” This is so bullshit.

This is gonna be full of random things. David Hernandez from American Idol was rumoured that he used to be a gay stripper at a Gay Bar called Dick’s in Phoenix Arizona. How delicious is that whole thing, I wish he is going to strip on stage. My favorite Danny Noriega was picked by “Vote for the Worst”, so hopefully the worsters’ votes will keep Danny all the way to top 12, so I can enjoy him more. A lot of gays couldn’t stand him or whatsoever, I LOVE HIM!

I felt that the new America’s next top model girls are so boring after watching the first episode, they are nothing compare to my favorite models, Mariacarla, Raquel, Coco, Gisele, Linda, Shalom, Lily Cole, etc. They look hideous and all have a bitch attitude. Even though bitchness is what TV is looking for, if you are not Linda or Naomi (real divas) or Janice Dickinson (fun bitch), being bitchy on television just make you look plain stupid.

My blog has more than 500 hits now, wow, thanks for the jubbers. So far, 4 comments left. Yes, only four, and I appreciate those.

The self-respecting girl Chris Crocker has a new video recently. Gaymes. I FUCKING LOVE HER! She absolutely got a point and expressed with her queen quality. If you check her myspace and check out her pictures, she looks prettier than most of the girls I encounter in daily life.

I don’t know why I love those queen gays, Danny Noriega, Chris Crocker, maybe I am a queen too. No, I am a nerd with cute personality.

Today there is no cutie but a beautie. Chris Crocker’s Reba face cracked me up.

American idols are back, I watched the boys last night even though today I have exam, anyway, disappointly, not many cute ones but I still found my favorites.

David Archuleta, the 17 years old kid is so innocent and cute. Ideal boyfriend type of boy next door.

Danny Noriega, his hairstyle is gay, the way he talks is incredibly gay, and he loves Britney! I love him, he is sooooo funny and I adore his gayness. And even his mom looks like a drag queen. But if you are straight or anti-queen straight acting gay, you probably found him annoying. I don’t care, I love him.

Ok, I don’t care about the rest, but still I would like to comment on them.

Colton Berry: he does look like Ellen DeGenerous from certain angles.

Robbie Carrico: boring

Jason Castro: I actually think he is good, but with that last name, he will never win AMERICAN idol.

Chikezie: what is this dude’s last name? He got a bitchy attitude last night.

Garrett Haley: he is so pretty, he looks like a prince in a fairytale, I think he could be an actor.

David Cook: Boring.

David Hernandez: not a bad vocalist but his look is a little bit ghetto.

Michael Johns: too old.

Jason Yeager: too old and boring.

Luke Menard: very good looking, but too old and the voice is too high pitch, another Robin Thick?

What’s more exciting is my favorite show in the entire world America’s next top model (quote from What the Buck!) is back tonight, can’t wait to see those bitches.

Cutie: David Archuleta, a true Cutie!

This was when I was still back in China. My life in 9th grade was a terrible experience, it was the 3rd year of middle school and we were required to live in the dorm during the weekdays and go home for the weekend.

The reason that the school said was it allowed us focus on the High School entrance exam preparation more. But the real reason was school can make more money out of our parents’ pocket by providing us the fucked up low-budget dorms.

Six people live in a room, which was the same size as any McDonald’s restroom in the Midwest. Beside that each kid had one desk and one storage drawer (we called it the closet), that was it. All the kids live on the same floor had to share the public restroom on each floor.

I seriously believe that when the dorm was under construction, the budget was short and the school decided to build fewer toilets to save money! The outcome was 48 kids living on the same floor with only TWO fucking toilets. And it was those low cost squatting toilet, you have to squat over it. Isn’t that sweet?

After 10PM the power will be shut down except the lights in the restroom and the dorm manager will hold a flashlight to check whether we already go to bed or not, it was very “Catholic Boarding School”ish. And people like to go pooping after 10PM coz there wasn’t much time during the day and it is embarrassing being seen pooping.

At first, there were doors in front of each toilet, you know, they were separated into two toilet rooms. After one week, the doors were torn down. According to the school officials, the sound of shutting those doors was so loud that significantly interrupted students’ sleep after 10PM. It is most fucked up reason for tearing down toilet doors. So right now you can see who was pooping, it was like “Look, John Doe is pooping and it damn stinks!”

After that, nobody pooped during the day anymore except those who had diarrhea, and after 10PM everyone was like “hey you wanna go poop with me?—Yeah let’s go!” And all the 48 guys lived on the same floor had to fight for those two squat toilets.

OK, the weird dude I wanna talk about, we were in the same class. He always carried his textbooks and went to the restroom to study after 10PM coz the restroom is the only place that has light after 10, as if he just can’t get enough studying during the day or maybe he just freaking love the ammonium smell.

You know, I’ve seen a lot of nerdy people coz I’m Asian, and I am nerdy too, but this dude is just too “Larry Craig”. Coz if he was in America, people would assume that he’s gay right away, and probably he went to the restroom after 10PM to have a secret date with his boyfriend or something like that.

Since the toilet doors have been torn off by school official’s ridiculous reason, some people decide to hold “it” for five days and do “it” during the weekend at home. I don’t know how they can hold it for so long, coz I can only hold “it” for maximum four days. On Thursday I will be like “oh damn it, my poops are kicking my rectum” coz they want to be “born”.

So one night, I went to poop after 10PM. And that weird dude was pooping using the toilet next to me. And we talked about a lot of nonsense like “does the odor bother you studying” things like that. Later he finished first, and he stood up and started to watch me pooping head over the separating wall between the toilets. The “wall” was really short, like two and a half feet tall. So I was like “what are you doing? Are you freaking out of your mind?” I can tell you right now that being watched pooping is one of the most embarrassing things in the world.

Today the guy is “Goose” from top gun, I actually found him cuter than Tom Cruise, am I weird? Anyway, he is old now.

I don’t get why those pro-lifers always like to say “children are the gifts from God, we shall not have any abortion because it’s killing God’s babies.” Even though I never had any sex education, I know that if you are pregnant, it’s not because God sent an angel to plant a seed in your belly just because you prayed last night for a kid, it is because, not too long ago, a penis shot a load in your vagina. Wake up people, this is the why you are pregnant.

And why people can’t get rid of some zygotes that they don’t want, because it’s alive? You know, every time I jerk off, I am the witness of billions of my sperms died. I felt so sorry, they are alive, they all have a tail that can swim and they all could be my kids! But I am rational enough to realize that the earth is gonna explode if every man have billions of kids.

Not long after I came to the states, I saw the news that Georgia or Alabama (can’t remember which one) passed a law saying that woman cannot abort the fetus even though she’s being raped. How could they treat women like that? If I am a woman, I would rather live in Saudi Arabia because there they probably treat woman better. And how cruel is the reality for the kid when he/she grow up, somebody has to tell them “your dad raped your mom and here you are, and hell knows who and where your dad is.”

I never encourage women to abort babies for fun, don’t get me wrong. But I seriously believe school should teach them safe sex, especially educate the boys to wrap it up, hopefully there will be less teenage mothers. So they will have more opportunities to go to colleges and have a better life in the future. Being a single mom, working minimum wage job, raising a kid, while going school part time is hard, this kind of life is too hard.

I work in the ghetto, there are so many strong black women raising their kids alone, I wanna give them applause, because they are being a mother. Coz if it’s my mom, she left me to her parents to go to a foreign country while saying to me “I did this all for YOU”.

We also know that some religious schools don’t want to teach students about sex, as if they never teach kids sex, the kids will never have sex coz they don’t know what sex is. Massachusetts State wants to teach kids in public school about gay couples, I like that and I think it’s good for kids to know the diversity of the world. But some parents got pissed, probably they want their kids to be homophobic and ignorant as themselves, or they just think if the schools do not teach their kids about homosexuality, their kids will never be gay. People are stupid.

Today the cutie is British Singer Shayne Ward, I bought all his CDs.

Recently I read an article on newspaper, a study research shows that  it is not cost effective for government to prevent obese and smoking, because it costs more money to take care of people who is healthy then obese people and smokers. For example the researcher van Baal said “lung cancer is a cheap disease to treat because people don’t survive very long. But if they are old enough to get Alzheimer’s one day, they may survive longer and cost more.”

What kind of fucked up research is that? As a health professional student I am strongly offended by what that asshole said. But George Bush could definitely develop a new strategy to help relief his government deficit. He could encourage smoking and unhealthy eating, so we all are going to die at age 65 due to lung cancer, diabetes, and hypertension and other obese related disease, right after we got retired. How much money government can save because of this? Less social security money need to be given out, less Medicare fund, so Bush can have his 3.1 trillion dollar throwing around.

In the end of the article, the asshole still says “we are not recommending that government stop trying to prevent obesity, but they should do it for the right reasons.” So what is the right reason? If you hope that people die early so government can save money, you are retarded.

And for whoever wants to treat senior citizens like shit, think they are useless anyway, try to cut budget by reducing Medicare money, GO FUCK YOURSELF! Senior citizens, they have been working for their whole life, and after retire it is their rights to enjoy their golden years, and not to get busted by those stupid politician’s Medicare plan. They deserve to be treated 10 times better.

So today the cutie is Colin Farrell. I wanna watch his sex tape.

Family Value this word has been seriously abused by some politicians and religious organizations. Let’s face it, all they wanna do is against gay couple get married. They always say that a child needs a father and a mother, thus gays should not get married.

First, it is illogical; if you don’t want a kid have two daddies or two mommies, it would be reasonable to protest gay adoption, coz you know two sperms and two eggs will not make a kid. I’m just happy to have some cats. Second, they never against single parent families, and how hypocritical is that? So I’m thinking, maybe we could have laws to let every kid have one father and one mother.
1. If you wanna have a kid, you have to be married with an opposite sex.
2. Before you have a kid, you have to sign a contract that you are not going to divorce until your kid turning 18, so we can be sure that the kid will have a mother and a father.
3. If you are unmarried and pregnant, abort it.
4. If you are divorced and while having children, your kids go to foster care right away unless you marry another one the next day.
5. If your husband/wife died before your kids turning 18, your kids go to foster care right away unless you marry another one the next day.
Should I go on?
6. Boarding schools are banned because all kids deserve to have a mother and a father with them.
7. No parents are allowed to work after school time because all kids deserve to have a mother and a father with them.
8. If one of the parents goes to jail, the kids go to foster care right away.
9. If kids have to stay in hospital, parents should sleep next to them because all kids deserve to have a mother and a father.
After your kids turn 18, you can kick them out of the house and get a happy divorce. And when you get old your kids kick you into nursing home sweet home and waiting to die. How sweet it is. That’s called “Family Value”.

So today the cutie is Korean actor Won Bin. Very Cute.

I never had any sex education in my life, and the Chinese government is always trying to censor all the porn websites, which are our only source of sex education. And I grew up with my grandparents, so I didn’t have any access to any sort of porn coz they don’t watch that. Other kids may find their parents’ porns  hiding underneath the bed. I have always been a traditional “good boy”; I never watched any porn until I pass 18. In high school, I was the only guy that has never watched porn before graduation. Pathetic, right?

Because of my lack of sex education, I didn’t know that we all come from vagina until I was 14. I didn’t know women have vagina down there; I thought they pee through their assholes, sorry girls. I’ve seen my aunt get pregnant, her belly is just getting bigger and bigger each day, and one day my cousin was born when I was 7. So I knew the baby came out of his mother’s body. And I was wondering where the “exit” is?

Back then I was thinking, if I can get pregnant, where the baby can come out? It is not very likely to be the asshole coz if so then my butt is going to suffer a major constipation or just simply explode with a mixture of shit and blood and baby. Then, it got to be the bellybutton. So I held the belief that babies come from bellybutton until 14, when one of my friends told me about the real “exit”.

It was in my 9th grade middle school last year; we all lived in that low-budget dorm. I couldn’t remember how the conversation went, but he told me “girl has a hole down there, and you have to put your dick into the hole while making love.” I was shocked, “what? What are you talking about? What do I do that for?”

You know, I have seen a lot of sex scene during the early 90s while I was still in elementary schools. Tons of western movies were just flushed into the Chinese TV channels at that time. And if you see a man and a woman in any western movie, regardless of their age difference, they are going to have sex sooner or later. I’ve watched a lot of hot sex scene as a toddler, which stimulated me go into puberty way too early.

But sex scene in movies is nothing compares to porn, I thought having sex was just kissing, caressing, and maybe some rubbing. I didn’t know it was all about fucking. After knowing that, I felt it was so disgusting and dirty for a really long time.

However, I still didn’t know what pussy looks like until I was 18 in college, all the boys gathered together watching porn in the dorm. Sadly it was straight porn; I lost my porn virginity to some Japanese straight porn. I already knew I was gay back then and didn’t really care about pussy, but when I saw how the straight guys having sex and most importantly, the pussy, oh gosh, I was like, “THANK GOD I AM GAY”. As an atheist, it was my first time I felt that I was truly blessed by my good Lord.

By the way, the Japanese porn is really kinky. The guys are always short and fat and ugly with a one inch long dick, and the girls are pretty but are always screaming their head off. It made me feel that she is not doing something pleasant but painful. Anyway, I can’t really watch the ugly guys in those straight porns, and do you know that a lot of times the guys covered their faces with a black veil, which made them look exactly like terrorists. If Americans watch this and don’t know it is porn beforehand, it’s gonna be like “oh my god the Taliban’s new tape is fucking Japanese girl?”

OK, the girl, my potential fag hag I wanna talk about, she was my high school deskmate for one and half years. Chinese high school is still like elementary school, you stay in the same classroom with the same people for three years. We were so kinky that we would give each other sex education. She explained to me what cycle was and I explained to her what cum was. We were so weird but we were so close and we talked about everything. We talked about guys, we gossiped about everybody. After watching Will & Grace, the first and only girl in my mind who can be my grace was she.

She passed away due to cancer not long after I came to the states.

I really miss her and this post is dedicated to her.

Today the cutie of the day is French actor, Édouard Baer. I found Jewish guy pretty hot.